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I think I'm done with Buzznet.

This place isn't what it was when I first joined and first got active, and I find myself caring less and less. I guess this is growing up.

Either way, I'm leaving here, but I'll still be hanging around tumblr and twitter.

I'm not going to delete, I'm just going to stop posting. Hopefully if I become famous, people can find this and make fun of me.

Adios y'all

EDIT: This isn't directed at any one person, I love you guys.

It's not you, it's me

I no longer support TWLOHA or whatever the abbreviation is.

Even when I did "support" it, I had a vague idea about what the organization was actually about and what they did. I just knew it was about suicide prevention and depression or something similar and my favorite bands like Paramore and All Time Low (at the time) wore the shirts. There was a point in time where I wanted a shirt to show my support, but I most likely just wanted to emulate the people I inexplicably admired.

According to this: http://www.twloha.com/finances/ only $446,996 out of $969,103 in 2008 went to actual support programs, and the rest went to the organization for various reasons, some essential and some were salary and such. For a non profit organization, a large amount of their money goes into the merchandise and employees, rather than the organizations they're supposed to be supporting. Quite frankly it would be better to donate directly to the help organizations than to donate to TWLOHA.

Speaking of organizations, TWLOHA has supported Mercy Ministries in the past, a program for women struggling with various issues, one of them being their sexual orientation. They claim not to have a "conversion program" but it's one of the issues women receive counseling for.

Few people who support TWLOHA have really done their research, and it's just about the music and the culture that goes along with it. If you really need help with depression and suicidal thoughts, go here instead: http://suicidehotlines.com/ or contact a school counselor or a priest or someone, rather than a shady organization.

EDIT: From someone on tumblr

"as far as i know, they didn’t donate to “gay cure” camps, but they did donate to an australian organization that posed as a women’s shelter and health retreat but denied the women medical or psychological care and performed exorcisms on them instead. they also denied them contact with outsiders and kept them in solitary confinement. this group was so fucked up that there’s a group in australia now for women that survived it. they stopped donating when pressured. but re: “gay cure” camps, they currently donate to a christian summer camp, but i can’t say for sure that’s it’s a “gay cure” thing. they seem to mostly end up focusing on getting drug addicts off drugs, and succeeding at it, which i won’t argue with. they’re also anti-semites, though.

the group that they were originally part of was fireproof ministries. (http://www.fireproofministries.com/) there’s really nothing i can say about these guys that isn’t in plain sight on their webpage: they manage a group to help you end masturbation and viewing pornography and another that encourages you to starve yourself for jesus. they’re just batshit crazy."

Everyone was doing this on tumblr, and I figured that people on Buzznet would be most interested in this stuff. So email me if anything strikes your fancy.

Don't respond here, just email me.

What I have:

• * a green and black BLG shirt from Tourzilla
•  * Welcome to the Black Parade MCR skeleton band shirt
• * FTSK shirt
• * Blue CIWWAF shirt
• * Metro Station poster lol
• * Rip outs from AP Mag of Sing It Loud, Danger Radio, All Time Low, The Maine, The Rocket Summer, GCH, and TAI which are free if anyone wants any
• * The Maine poster
• * ATL poster

email me at isaysummer@gmail.com if you’re interested in anything

I don't know why it doesn't work

WHYYYYYY

I'm doing this because my computer is slowly dying and my mom probably won't get an external harddrive. I can deal with losing my pictures, because they're all online, and I can deal with losing my music because I can extract it from my iPod (except for the Doesn't Fit playlist, but oh well) so I just need to back up my GIFs and so here we go again

I don't really know why I saved this

Sweet dreams:

It's worsened by the fact that it's messed up.

To be honest, 2009 was really not a great year for me. School was not very good, there was music let out by my "favorite" bands that was severely disappointing (I haven't listened to Brand New Eyes or the new Say Anything though) and my general mood has been awful.

On a good note, I made lots of money (in comparison to the past), I enjoy all of my teachers, and I learned how to laugh at myself and take a joke.

The year's not completely over yet, but I doubt anything in the next two weeks will completely reverse 348 days of not so greatness.

Anyways my top album of the year is Fantasies by Metric, with Help I'm Alive/Gimme Sympathy being my favorite song.

Nothing Personal just got worse with each listen.

Instead of taking pictures or doing homework, I've been googling up photography tips and things like that. In my various searches I came upon this: socapa.org

And it sounds lovely. I mean, you get to go to New York or LA and learn how to take good pictures and go to theme parks and it sounds so amazing, and I really want to try and go this summer instead of spending it on the internet. But the problem is, it costs $2000+. It does cover everything, including food and equipment (they provide us with the cameras!) and board, but it just seems so steep.

Anyways, the point of this is two things:

1) Have you or anyone you know been to one of these camps? How was it? Did you (they) learn much?

2) Money raising suggestions if I can convince my madre

It would be really nice if someone could respond, because I want this reallyyy badly.

I said once "I do everything for the sake of nostalgia,"

I'm caught between letting go of the past

And what I used to like

And what I used to know

And what I used to believe

And who I used to be,

And learning who I am now.

I'm tired of pretending

But I just can't seem to lose my grip.

So I made a tumblr that will be fully snazzed and junk later, but now I have homework and that's more important. Anyways, it's here: http://nothingworkswithmyname.tumblr.com/

And so if you'd like to follow me or whatever, then that would be cool.

Or if you could direct me to some super cool ones to follow, that would be also pretty rad.